Thursday, 12 October 2017

My Story

Hi there everyone! I have a special and very personal post for you today where I won't be sharing a card but the story behind my blog. I'm finally ready to talk about it and I have written it down here. I hope you'll find a moment to go through the text and if you have any questions, feel free to ask! I'm totally ok with that ;).

¡Hola a todos! Hoy os traigo una entrada especial y muy personal en la que no voy a compartir una tarjeta sino la historia que hay detrás de mi blog. Por fin estoy lista para hablar de ello y lo he escrito todo aquí abajo. Espero que podáis encontrar un ratito para leerla y, si tenéis alguna duda, preguntad sin problemas :). 


"It’s been already three years since I started my Youtube channel and blog. I wanted to share the reasons that led me to do it from the beginning, but soon I realized that I wasn’t ready for it. Yet.
Today, 258 posts later, I’m ready. Today I’m revealing a part of me that not many people have seen, a part of me that makes me feel vulnerable and that I would never open up to the world if I wasn’t absolutely convinced of how helpful it could be for anyone going through the same situation. So here it is. This is my story:
I don’t want to bore you with unnecessary details, so I’ll try to get straight to the point.
When I was 21 years old, after leaving my family to move to another city and going through a hard break up that had torn me into pieces, I started suffering from anxiety. It was a quiet kind of anxiety, not easily noticed, yet it was ripping me apart from inside out.
That’s when I started eating, eating all the time, eating after I was full, even disgusted, eating until the thought of taking another bite was absolutely unbearable. And I would promise myself it wouldn’t happen again, that tomorrow I would stop, that I would get it under control. But tomorrow wouldn’t come.
A few months passed by and logically, I gained weight. I couldn’t fasten up my pants and started to feel uncomfortable in my own body. Those extra pounds weren’t a health problem, I was simply heavier than before and that made me feel ugly and unworthy. Every woman “knows” that if you don’t have a flat stomach, a perfectly rounded cellulite-free butt, a gap between the legs and slim arms, you are not worth it. That’s what we are told from the moment we are born. It’s on tv, in cartoons, in the add panel in front of your house, in the bus stop, in the cinema…it even comes from your own family and friends. It doesn’t matter where you look, or where you go, there’s no way out.
And I started throwing up. I could do it several times a day, then start a strict diet, break it five days later, binge and throw up again.
At that point I reached out for help. I was treated by a psychiatrist, a psychologist and a nurse. They gave me pills, I was forbidden to use the scale and they helped me control my impulses by following certain rules.
I got better, but all that help wasn’t enough to get me completely out of it. Everything they could do for me was already done, now it was only in my hands to get fully recovered. But it was far from easy. People don’t usually understand how hard it is to stop yourself when you suffer from bulimia, it’s an addictive vicious circle that sometimes seems impossible to break.
Right then, another disease came to my life to change it forever. I was diagnosed with IBD (Inflammatory Bowel Disease) when I was 27. The doctor told me I had ulcerative colitis, a chronic disease that has no cure and could only be treated with drugs to control the symptoms. If I was lucky I could live a normal life, but the disease would be with me for the rest of it.
It would make a lot of sense to think that this new disease helped me cope with bulimia. And it did, for a while. But it wasn’t enough and it got even worse when my disease aggravated a couple of years later. It had taken me years to find an occupation that made me feel happy and satisfied. I was convinced that being an actress was the right choice for me, what I could do best and my destiny. It wasn’t about being famous, not even close, it was simply my calling, everything made sense when I was on stage or when the camera started rolling. But my disease had a different plan for me and I was forced to leave my dream and stay home much longer than I wanted. At first I thought it would be only for a while, that I would get better and go back to my career. But that never happened.
During the next years, there were times when I had everything under control while other times everything looked like I didn’t make any progress. I didn’t think about giving up, but started to be aware of the fact that things were going to be like that for the rest of my life.
And right then, when I had no hope left, I found card making. Yes, that whole story to get here, to my cards 😊. It might be difficult to believe, but it was a game-changer. Not only it had the power to keep my mind busy and help me cope with impulses, it became my new passion. I didn’t know back then, but the path to full recovery had just started.
Today, over three years later, I can say that I’ve left behind a self-consuming mental illness and I’ve obtained a great tool to cope with a chronic disease.
That’s why I’m here, because I know many people out there are going through similar situations and different forms of anxiety and depression. Because I’m convinced that something as simple as crafting can help you deal with it, can even help you to get over it. I’m not saying a professional treatment isn’t needed, of course it is, but if you feel that’s no enough, just try this out. Find out what you like and spend some time doing it every day. And if this is not your case but you know somebody going through something similar, encourage them to give crafting a try, it could be just the extra help they need to keep moving forward.
Mental Illnesses are very real, and suffered by way more people than we can imagine, this is just my tiny contribution in order to help and create awareness. It will have been worth it if at least one person starts to feel better after reading this.
Thank you for reading, and thank you to everyone that is following me on this journey. Your kindness does make a big difference."

"Han pasado tres años desde que abrí mi canal de Youtube y este blog. Quería compartir las razones que me habían llevado a hacerlo desde el primer momento, pero en seguida me di cuenta de que no estaba preparada aún. Hoy, 258 publicaciones después, estoy lista. Hoy os enseño una parte de mí que muy poca gente ha visto, una parte muy íntima que me hace sentir vulnerable ante cualquier que pueda leerme y que nunca abriría al mundo si no creyera firmemente que puede ayudar a muchas personas en una situación similar a la mía. Así que aquí está. Ésta es mi historia:
Este relato empieza a mis 21 años (añitos, diría ahora que ya tengo 34). A esa edad, tras tomar la decisión de mudarme a otra ciudad, dejándolo todo atrás, y pasar por una ruptura sentimental que me rompió en mil pedazos, empecé a sufrir ansiedad. Una ansiedad silenciosa, que pasaba desapercibida pero me encogía el alma y me apretaba con fuerza.
Y comencé a comer, a comer a todas horas, a seguir después de estar llena, muy llena, incluso asqueada. Y cuando ya era insoportable seguir ingiriendo alimentos, cuando solo pensar en dar un bocado más me producía nauseas, paraba. Y me prometía que ya no volvería a pasar, que mañana pararía, que dejaría de comer dulces, que solo eran unos días descontrolados. Y el sol salía, y nada cambiaba, ya lo haré mañana.
Pasaron los meses y, como es de esperar, engordé unos cuantos kilos. Los pantalones no me abrochaban y me sentía incómoda en mi cuerpo. No tenía sobrepeso, no estaba gorda ni los kilos ganados suponían un problema de salud, simplemente pesaba más que antes y eso me hacía sentir fea, horrorosa, imposible de querer. Todas las chicas saben que si no tienes un vientre plano, unos glúteos perfectos y sin celulitis, unas piernas delgadas separadas totalmente la una de la otra y unos brazos finos y definidos, no mereces la pena. Nos lo dice todo el mundo, desde que somos solo unas niñas, hasta que somos tan viejas que ya a nadie le importa cómo sea nuestro cuerpo. Está en la tele, en los dibujos, en los carteles publicitarios, en el cine, en boca de nuestras familias y amigos…mires donde mires, vayas donde vayas, no hay escapatoria.
Y empecé a vomitar. Comenzaron los atracones, las purgas, las dietas imposibles, los intentos fallidos… Y en algún momento de esa vorágine, fui totalmente consciente de que ya no podía parar, que era incapaz de controlar el impulso, que necesitaba ayuda o estaba perdida.
Así que busqué ayuda. Me trató un psiquiatra, una psicóloga y una enfermera. Me dieron pastillas, me prohibieron usar la báscula y me ayudaron a controlar mis impulsos con pautas alimenticias. Mejoré bastante, pero llego un punto en que toda esta ayuda no era suficiente para seguir avanzando, todo lo que podían hacer ya lo habían hecho y ahora estaba en mis manos conseguir una recuperación total. Pero no es fácil, solo si has pasado por lo mismo entiendes que algo “tan sencillo” como dejar de darte atracones o dejar de vomitar, es una tarea casi imposible en los momentos más bajos, y que cuando empiezas se vuelve adictivo, adictivo como una droga, adictivo como el azúcar de todos esos alimentos que quieres comer hasta no poder más.
Fue entonces cuando otra enfermedad llegó para cambiarme la vida; a los 27 años me diagnosticaron EII (Enfermedad Inflamatoria Intestinal). Me dijeron que tenía colitis ulcerosa, una enfermedad crónica para la que no existe cura, podría hacer vida más o menos normal si me controlaban con medicamentos, pero iba a estar conmigo el resto de mi vida.
Jarro de agua fría.
Es lógico creer que la nueva enfermedad me hizo controlar mi bulimia nerviosa. Y así fue, durante un tiempo. Después no fue suficiente para parar mis impulsos y el empeoramiento de mi enfermedad un par de años más tarde no ayudaba mucho. Me había costado años encontrar la carrera que me hacía sentir totalmente plena y feliz, estaba convencida de que ser actriz era lo que debía hacer, lo que sabía hacer y mi destino. No se trataba de ser famosa, nada de eso, simplemente era mi vocación, todo tenía sentido cuando salía al escenario o cuando la cámara comenzaba a rodar. Pero como he dicho, mi enfermedad empeoró, tanto que me vi obligada a dejarlo y a quedarme en casa mucho más tiempo del que quería . Al principio pensé que solo serían unos meses, que me recuperaría y podría seguir intentando hacerme un hueco en el mundo de la actuación, pero no fue así.
Durante los años siguientes, hubo temporadas en las que podía controlar la bulimia, seguidas de otras en las que todo volvía a ser como al principio. Y aunque cada vez que caía procuraba levantarme con fuerza, comencé a sospechar que esto iba a ser así durante el resto de mi vida.
Entonces descubrí la tarjetería. Sí, toda esta historia para llegar aquí, a mis tarjetas 😊. Puede ser difícil de creer, pero lo cambió todo. No solo encontré algo que ocupaba mi mente y me ayudaba a calmar mis impulsos, también encontré una nueva pasión. Por increíble que parezca, incluso para mí, el camino a la recuperación total de mi bulimia acababa de empezar.
Hoy, más de tres años después, puedo decir con seguridad que he dejado atrás una enfermedad que me consumía, además de contar con una herramienta muy poderosa para ayudarme a superar los momentos más difíciles de vivir con una enfermedad crónica.
Y por eso estoy aquí, porque sé que mucha gente está pasando por lo que yo he pasado o por otros tipos de ansiedad y depresión. Porque estoy convencida de que algo tan simple como hacer manualidades, puede ayudarte a lidiar con ello, puede incluso ayudarte a superarlo. No estoy diciendo que pueda sustituir un tratamiento profesional, claro que no, pero si ves que no es suficiente ¡pruébalo!. Hay miles de manualidades entre las que elegir, no tienes por qué hacer tarjetas, solo encuentra aquello que te gusta y dedícale tiempo. Y si no es tu caso pero conoces a alguien que está en esta situación, anímale a probarlo, podría ser la ayuda que necesita para seguir adelante.
Las enfermedades mentales son muy reales y las sufren muchas más personas de las que podemos imaginar. Esta es mi pequeña aportación para crear conciencia y ayudar. Si una sola persona consigue sentirse mejor gracias a ello, habrá merecido la pena.
Gracias por leerme y gracias a todos aquellos que me seguís en este viaje. Gracias por vuestros comentarios, por vuestro ánimo y por estar ahí."

And...I think that's enough for one day don't you think? But I do have much more to share and that will be tomorrow with a BLOG HOP I organized! I hope you'll join me :). 
Have a wonderful day!

Y...creo que ya es bastante por hoy ¿no os parece? :). Pero todavía tengo mucho más que compartir con vosotros y lo haré mañana con un BLOG HOP que he organizado. ¡Espero que me acompañéis! :).
¡Que tengáis un día genial! 

138 comments :

  1. Thank you so much for sharing your story, Amanda! While there are many sad parts to your story, I'm so glad to see that this Crafty Little Pill has been the best medicine a girl could find. 💙💙💙

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  2. Admiro a quienes no hacen de su vida un "sí pero no", un "te cuento pero no te cuento", a quienes no te tienen en vilo...pero luego en un momento determinado deciden que es EL MOMENTO. Lo sueltan, lo comparten con naturalidad y ya. Para mí, eso es aunar valentía y discreción.
    Sin lugar a dudas, el nombre de tu blog ya de por sí dejaba entrever que había algo detrás. Muchos son los que sentimos que la tarjetería (u otras manualidades) nos liberan, nos calman y canalizan nuestro día a día, o nuestra semana a semana...que tiene sus curvas, claro. En tu caso, que la tarjetería te haya dado el empuje para distraer tu mente y controlar tus impulsos en situaciones tan difíciles, es de quitarse el sombrero. La tarjetería ha estado ahí y tú la has incorporado a tu vida de manera que suma. Y sumar...multiplica. Enhorabuena por tu enorme ejercicio de superación y gracias por compartirlo cuando te lo ha pedido el cuerpo.
    Todo esto hoy. Mañana, por supuesto...¡blog hop!
    Besos.

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  3. Thank you for sharing Amanda. I am sure it took a lot of courage and you are very brave. I am so glad that you found card making as it seems to have helped you. You have a wonderful gift and each week I look forward to enjoying your beautiful immaculately produced cards.

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  4. Cuanta alegría me has regalado durante tantos vídeos de preciosas tarjetas..., y cuánta alegría saber que ahora eres feliz y hablas en pasado de tu enfermedad. Un abrazo inmenso Amanda

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    1. Gracias Loreto! Estoy feliz de poder hablar en pasado :) Muchos besos!

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  5. so brave - well done on telling your story- heres to a healthy happy life

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  6. Gracias por compartir tu historia con nosotras, Amanda. Ahora además de admirarte por tu saber hacer, te admiro por tu valentía... vivimos en una sociedad en la que las enfermedades mentales siguen siendo tabú y esto no cambiará si no hablamos abiertamente sobre ellas.

    Un beso muy grande

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    1. De acuerdo contigo Laura! Las enfermedades mentales son enfermedades como cualquier otra y que necesitan tratamiento. Te mando un besazo!

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  7. You are so beautiful to listen to and when I watch your videos I always feel good and inspired! I have also found that card making has helped fill a gap in my life that was very hard to bear. I am so happy that you have located your happy place. Keep up the good work!!! Love you!

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    1. Thank you Cynthia, so happy to hear it helps you too! Apparently we are a big group of people ;). Big hug to you!

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  8. Thank you for sharing. Know it was a hard journey for you. I have a weight problem and know the feeling that being over weight causes especially when you can't seem to ever lose it. It took a lot of courage to tell others of your problem. Card making is relaxing for me too but don't think I will ever be able to get as good as you. TFS

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    1. Of course you will! I'm sure your cards are stunning! Thank you so much for your words!

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  9. What a brave person. I too am dealing with depression. My body is slowly taking so many things I like to do. I started crafting. Unfortunately I have realized that instead of eating I spend way too much of my disability pay on crafting supplies. I finally decided to call a debt consolidation company to get my house in order.
    I'm going to talk to my doctor to see if I need to speak to a physiologist to help me.
    I love watching others demonstrate techniques but I think I have to buy what they have. I'm going to try to make due with what I have to make my cards and crafts.
    Many have told me I should sell my cards and crafts but I never feel that they are just not worthy to sell. I was told I am my own worst enemy so I'm going to try to work on that and maybe someday start selling what I make.
    Thanks again for opening up and maybe helping others to get past their insecurities.

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    1. Thank you so much for sharing this with me. First of all, I understand how you feel when you think you need to buy everything, it happens to me too, but it's good to stop and realize you can do very similar things with the supplies you already own. We are very often our own worst enemy, just listen when you talk to yourself, would you say that to a friend you love? This is an exercise I try to do sometimes, we really need to be kinder to ourselves. So, don't give up and keep working on loving yourself more, and of course seek for help if you need it. All the best to you and a big hug!

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  10. Hi Amanda, you are very brave for sharing your story, I too suffer from depressions occasionally and I have been over weight for most of my life. I lost 35 pounds after my son was born but I've put 30 pounds back on over the last couple of years with undiagnosed low thyroid and sleep apnea. I have crafted for many years and it just takes me to another place. I'm sure it feels great to put your story to paper and share what many of us go through on a daily basis. Love your videos, you are very talented!

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    1. Thanks a lot for sharing! I'm so glad crafting is also helping you. I understand how you feel, but don't give up, you are not alone. Hugs!

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  11. Sin duda, lo importante es saber darnos cuenta de que no estamos bien, pedir ayuda y poder dejarnos ayudar; para muchos las manualidades son una herramienta que nos ayuda a superar situaciones difíciles, yo también conocí el scrap en el momento preciso que más podía necesitar algo positivo y creativo.
    Te mando mucho apoyo y ánimo, espero seguir descubriendo tus tarjetas por muchos años y sobretodo agradezco que hayas compartido tu historia, para ayudar a otros en estas situaciones.

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    1. Muchas gracias Stef! Te mando un abrazo a ti también.

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  12. Thank you for sharing your story. I do not suffer from depression but I was married to someone who had manic depression, every day was a roller coaster and so I started doing some crafts, not card making, just crafts and that helped a lot. I jumped from hobby to hobby until I found card making and now I am hooked. I spend way too much money on supplies and like someone wrote in another comment I feel that I need everything they have to make the particular card. I am slowly learning that I don't need everything, I can find something similar and then that makes the card my own. I love this hobby and now all of my family and friends would like sets of cards for birthdays and Christmas and that's what I'm working on now. I love your videos and your cards, they are totally amazing and I am so happy that you found the one hobby that has helped you.

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    1. Thank you Denise! I understand very well what you say about wanting everything. There have been many times I bought something I really wanted and then didn't use it more than once, so it is good to work with what we have and get new things only when we know we are going to give them a good use (easier said than done, I know ;)). Hugs!

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  13. Oh my goodness I am incredibly touched that you’ve shared your pain and recovery with us. I also suffer from a similar disorder Crohn’s disease so I understand your issues in dealing with that. However everything else that you’ve been through is simply overwhelming. I’m so glad that card making has given you joy and a way of coping. Thank you so much for sharing your talents with us and your story! I wish you all the best! FYI you are an incredibly talented card maker and I truly enjoy your work!

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    1. Thank you so much for your kind words! I'm sorry you also have an IBD, it has changed my life dramatically and medication doesn't work very well on me, but I'm trying to stay positive. Hope you are doing better than me :). Big hug!

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  14. thank you for sharing your struggles - I can empathize with you as cards have been my joy for a long time - and was especially a blessing when I had to keep my leg immobile for over 5 months to heal a torn muscle - I would have gone nutty without my card making. here is a wonderful article on value of our hobby - http://themailifiles.blogspot.com/2013/02/this-is-your-brain-on-crafts-by-lisa_23.html

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    1. Thank you so much for the article Betty! When card making helped me I didn't know how or why, but this article explains everything. Big hug to you!

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  15. Creo que hace falta tener mucho valor para escribir esta entrada tan personal. Me parece admirable que cuentes tu historia. Me alegro mucho de que encontrases ayuda en la tarjetería para superar momentos difíciles. Yo empecé a hacer tarjetas para lidiar con mis momentos de estrés y soy más feliz desde entonces. Para mi es súper terapéutico!
    Un abrazo

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    1. Gracias Beatriz! Me alegro de que a ti también te haya ayudado. Un beso!

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  16. Hello and Congrats. What a wonderful recovery story - and so glad you shared it - for I'm sure it helps all who reads this! So glad the terrible pains are behind you - and so glad you use your talent to to help yourself and to help us be passionate too. Crafting is a blessing. Thanks, Denise

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  17. Hi Amanda. I am so proud of you that you were able to move forward and are doing so much better. I love your cards and watching your videos. I know you are an inspiration to many.

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    1. Thank you so much Lydia, you are really kind :).

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  18. Hi Amanda, thank you for sharing your story. You are so brave to put yourself and your story out there, and I want to thank you for that. I am so grateful that you found your passion and that you so freely share it with us and inspire us in such wonderful ways.
    Take care
    Tracy

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    1. Thank you so much for your words Tracy!

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  19. Gracias por compartir tu historia Amanda, es tan importante abrir el corazon y el alma , ademas sin dudas alguna que puedes ayudar a alguien a abrirse y enfrentar un problema de salud.- Me alegro que estes dejando atras tu mal rato y que eso haya hecho que crees en una forma increible. Muchas gracias , desde la Patagonia Argentina , besitos

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    1. Muchas gracias Graciela. Te mando un abrazo.

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  20. You are stronger than you thought. Crafting helps all kinds of people with problems mental and physical. Thank you for reminding all of us what a powerful healing passion this hobby an create,

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  21. Como siempre digo, hacer manualidades sana. Yo estoy en un camino de picada con mi salud por temas de ansiedad y nervios, además de stress. Tengo una enfermedad autoinmune y no saben cuál es. Es frustrante tratar de poner un nombre, descubrir un tratamiento, saber contra que estás luchando y al final del camino no saberlo. Y sumado a que tengo un bebé es lo peor... Pero espero poder solucionar y ver todo más positivo. Hay días que mi depresión es tan real, tan visible que ni yo sé quién soy...te entiendo y es alentador que publiques algo así

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    1. Gracias Romina. Siento mucho que estés pasando por un momento tan duro. Entiendo lo que es tener a un peque a tu cargo y no estar bien, ojalá que al menos den con la enfermedad en concreto para que puedan darte un tratamiento adecuado. Un abrazo muy muy fuerte.

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  22. Oh Amanda, I am so sorry that you had to experience this but I am happy that you shared it. It helps to know that we are not alone. YOU are not alone! I have experienced IBD and anxiety as my children we leaving the nest and our extended family suffered a number of losses, all within a four year period. It hit hard and it IS real. We tend to suffer in silence for as long as possible but we don't need to. I, like you, found solace in my card making and it helped tremendously.
    Thanks so much for sharing your journey Amanda and KNOW, you are not alone! {{{HUGS}}}

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    1. Teresa, thank you so much for sharing this with me, I'm so sorry you have also suffered so much. Sending you a big hug. You are also not alone :).

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  23. Amanda, thanks for sharing your story. I was drawn to your youtube videos not only because of your lovely cards but also because of the name of your channel because I turned to card making as a stress relief/anxiety relief hobby from my job. It was either quit my job or find a way to cope with the trauma of seeing harm and hurt among our most vulnerable population every day. From that perspective your blog and channel title made so much sense to me! And it was and is so comforting to know I'm not the only one who turns to creativity and a way to reach out positively to the world around me as my little way to make my world a bit better place to live. Thanks as always for sharing!

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    1. Thank you Sally for sharing this. Sending you a big hug!

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  24. Thank you for sharing your story. It made me cry - partly because I see so much of myself in your story and I know how healing crafts can be and partly because I know that mental health issues are often not taken seriously. You are so brave.

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    1. Thank you Valerie. It's true what you say, mental illness is often taken as a choice some people "decide" to make. I think it's important to understand how wrong that is. Sending you hugs!

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  25. You are brave to share and never know who is reading and who this will help and inspire. I love making cards and it helped me through a rough period when I lost my husband. The response from card bloggers lifted me up and was such a comfort. It is a wonderful hobby and people enjoy receiving a handmade card to lift their spirits and know they are being thought of.

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    1. Oh Brenda, I'm so sorry for your loss. Happy to know card making helped you a bit through such a hard time. Sending you a big hug!

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  26. Thank you for sharing your story. I thought I’d share mine...
    I started card making again after a long gap, when my mother was ill with cancer. She encouraged me to make cards again and for a while, we enjoyed it together. When she passed away 2 years ago, it became my way of coping with the loss. A distraction from grieving and a way to focus. I’m so pleased she encouraged me to start this hobby again.

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    1. Gemma, your story is both sad and beautiful. It's so great you could enjoy such a special time with your mother and now that's always going to be a connection to her. Big hug.

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  27. Hi Amanda..just found your blog through the blog hop (..I follow Laura)...
    So happy to hear this hobby helped you so much..to distract you from all the other things going around in circles in your mind...pain and being ill...
    I find too that this hobby we have card making keeps me on my feet..although there are days when I just don't have any energy or just have to much pain..just seeing all the great cards and inspiration from others makes me happy..and are so uplifting..
    sending much love your way from the Netherlands,
    Holly.
    ps I am following your blog now with email updates...

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    1. Hi Holly, I'm so sorry you are also experiencing illness. I hope card making keeps helping you every day. By the way, did you know I live in the Netherlands now? :).

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  28. Thank you for sharing your story, you have come from far. Your cards are beautiful!

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  29. Amanda te mando un achuchon gigante!!! si ya decia yo que encontrar tu canal de you tube no habia sido solo casualidad! Eres muy grande bonita, gracias por compartir tu historia, gracias!!!! ����������

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    1. Muchas gracias Patri, me ha encantado tu mensaje :). Un abrazo!

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  30. Sharing your story took courage, thank you for finding it in yourself to be vulnerable. I am so happy you have found your passion. Your creativity is amazing. I hope you can really embrace what a gift you share with others.

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  31. Te sigo desde que te descubri en YouTube. Me encantan tus trabajos y ahora me gustas tu xq me gustan las personas valientes y luchadoras.Sigue haciendo esas preciosas tarjetas.

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    1. Muchas gracias Rosa, qué palabras tan bonitas :).

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  32. Thank you for telling your story. I use my card making and artsy projects as my own personal therapy. I suffer from several autoimmune disease, IBD and celiac disease which have a very strict diet, I have severe allergies to many medications and food, making cards takes me away from all of that. Each card I make is for a family member, friend or co-worker, each expresses my love and care for that person. i just keep on making cards--and good for you for having a blog hop!

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    1. Thank you so much. Sorry you are experiencing illness too, I know how difficult it gets sometimes. Hang in there!

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  33. I can so relate to your story. Not with myself but with my daughter, she is only 11 and deals with anxiety and IBS. Even though I'm a nurse, some days I feel helpless. Crafting helps me! Mental illness not only affects those suffering from it but those that love them. Hugs to you Amanda. Thank you for sharing your story!

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    1. Thank you Ilda, I can understand the pain of seeing your daughter going through such difficult times, I'm also a mom and my own mother would change places with me if she could. Wishing you and your daugher all the best.

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  34. I applaud you for your courage to share this difficult journey, Amanda! What you had been through were a ton to deal with for a 20-something. We are thrilled to have craft stars like you to inspire in card-making, but also, with your triumphant life story! The battle is real, but you are not alone.... Sending big hugs to you!

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    1. Oh, thank you Virginia! You are so kind. Sending you a big hug back! :)

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  35. Hi, Amanda ~ Thank you so much for sharing your story with us! I am so impressed with how card making has helped you, and how you have reached out on your blog and YT channel to share your talents with us! Sending big hugs to you...Barb G. xo

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  36. Omg I think I love this deer the more I see it! Your card is wonderful!

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  37. Wow, that's an amazing story. You're so brave for sharing this. Thank you.

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  38. What a beautiful post Amanda. Thank you for opening up and sharing your vulnerability. I think so many of us are guilty of only wanting to project the very best. Thank you again for your bravery and I'm so glad you found card making - both for yourself and for all of us who get to look at your pretty cards.

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  39. I commend your courage to reveal your healing journey. Many of us have our medical battles to fight, and crafting gives us tools to help soften the war scars. Love to all of you lovely warriors!

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  40. I am so glad you shared your story and that you were brave enough to start your channel and finally share this piece of you with everyone. I am always so inspired by your cards and your voice is so soothing; it helps me to watch your videos when my day is overwhelming. I also had extreme anxiety starting from the same age you did. I still can't function like I used to before, but I agree that finding a positive outlet and focus helps.

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    1. Thank you Sarah. I'm glad it is getting better for you, don't ever lose hope to be completely recovered, you'll get there. Big hug!

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  41. Thank you for sharing your personal story. I appreciate your courage to share and your faith that others will see it for what it is, a story of part of your life's journey and how it brought you to the blog and to others around the world. It is not seeking anything for you, but for you hoping that it will help at least one other person. I believe I speak for many others... it helps many, many others.

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    1. Thank you for your words Pam. I do hope it will help someone, maybe I'll never know about it, but it doesn't matter, still worth it. Thank you!

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  42. Thank you for sharing your story. You are a courageous woman and very Brave. God Bless you and thank you for sharing your beautiful cards with us.

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  43. Dear Amanda. Thank you SO MUCH for sharing!!!! That is a really big thing. I'm proud to have been a part of your journey (without knowing it) I think you are very courages and strong to let people know about your struggle and journey. I look forward to Keep on following you. XOXO

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  44. Podría decir muchas cosas pero voy a centrarme en la más importante: muchas gracias. Por abrir tu corazón y compartir con nosotras ese lado oscuro que, aunque superado, da vértigo. Gracias por visibilizar un problema con el que convivimos cada día: el miedo a compartir las dificultades mentales que vivimos. Tu historia me ha tocado el alma por muchos motivos pero, especialmente, por verme reflejada. Por saber que a mucha más gente la tarjetería la ha supuesto una luz al final del túnel. Y, aunque sigamos en el túnel, también seguimos viendo la luz. Muchísimas gracias.

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    1. Gracias a ti, unas palabras preciosas, de verdad, muchas gracias.

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  45. Amanda una historia increíble de superación y fuerza ..... y tú una persona que desde el primer momento que vi una tarjeta tuya en Facebook supe que eras "especial" y todo lo que haces es maravilloso. Un beso muy muy fuerte y a seguir a delante que la vida es bella.

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  46. Amanda que admirable e íntimo lo que haz compartido con nosotros tu seguidores, pero bendito Dios que te ha ayudado y guiado a encontrar algo hermoso para seguir presente y reconociendo que eres un bello ser humano con mucho más que ofrecer al mundo. Mil gracias por compartirnos tu historia, pues ciertamente somos muchos con inseguridades, temores, enfermadades del cuerpo y la mente que nesecitamos saber que no estamos solos en esta jornada y que si hay alternativa solo hay que explorarlas. Me siento agradecidas de haber encontrado tu canal y tu blog, pues siempre puedo identificarme contigo de un modo único. Dios te siga bendiciendo y ahora te admiro y respeto tu talento muchísimo más. Eres una mujer bella, por dentro y por fuera, de verdad que tu historia me bendice hoy!

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    1. Muchísimas gracias Liza. Gracias a comentarios como el tuyo, sé que no estoy sola :). Un abrazo!

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  47. Hola Amanda, hace mucho que te sigo en tu canal de YT, eres ejemplo de superación, muchas gracias por compartir esta experiencia tan personal, eso demuestra que has superado la enfermedad con creces... Te animo a que sigas haciéndonos sonreir con tus hermosas tarjetas, demostrando así que la voluntad de superación es lo mejor que tiene el ser humano. Muchos besos desde España ;)

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    1. Muchísimas gracias Maria! Te mando un abrazo!

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  48. Estoy emocionada, sinceramente. Siento que solamente puedo darte miles de gracias.

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  49. Gracias, gracias y gracias...
    Siempre me ha encantado tu trabajo, ahora me encantas tú. Felicidades y Enhorabuena.

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  50. Thank you for sharing your story and I hope more people will be able to read it and learn that there is support for them and that taking time to be creative has a positive impact on attitude, etc.

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  51. Amanda, thank you so much for sharing your story, I know it’s difficult to make yourself vulnerable, but I found that sharing helps the healing. God bless you!

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  52. I simply adore your videos. I’m so sorry for what you’ve had gone through and I know it’s not easy. But at least you have come so far in sharing your talents. I lost my husband over a year ago and I thank my friend for introducing me to cardmaking. It is so therapeutic and it makes me happy.

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    1. Oh, Elizabeth, I have no words. I'm so sorry for your loss. Sending you a big big hug.

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  53. Amanda, thanks for your courage to tell your story. I've been following you on You Tube for a couple of years. You're very talented. I'm so happy that you found crafting. I'm bipolar and have used crafting as a therapy tool for 50+ years. People think I'm kidding when I tell them it's great therapy.

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    1. Thank you for sharing Cynthia, it is a great therapy! I also have two close family members that are bipolar, I know it's not easy. Sending you a big hug!

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  54. Thank you for sharing your story and showing others real courage. I totally agree that crafting soothes the soul.

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  55. Thank you for sharing you story and being willing to be vulnerable and real with us all. I too suffer from many chronic illnesses and suffer with anxiety too. I know that crafting and Card Making have been a huge blessing to me. It is a wonderful hobby that allows me to place my focus somewhere else than on the pain, anxiety, etc.. and because I have lost so much to my illnesses, it has also given me a much needed purpose. I can make cards for card drives, I can send happy mail and try to cheer up another person who needs it, I can leave a positive comment on a post and brighten someone's day, etc... may God continue to bless you for sharing your story, I doubt you will ever know how many people you have touched and helped by sharing it. Thank you.

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    1. Thank you for sharing Maureen. I too have lost so much to my illness and card making me has given me not onlya purpose but also a job I can do from home. I'm so glad it has also helped you. Big hug!

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  56. Muchas gracias por compartir tu historia y me alegro muchísimo que hayas podido salir adelante. Que Dios te siga bendiciendo. Un abrazo.

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  57. Gracias Amanda por compartir, el arte tiene un gran poder de sanacion, tu misma lo has vivido, debemos potenciarlo y como bien dices dedicarle un tiempo todos los días. me alegro mucho de tu superación y decirte que eres poesía pura en todas y cada una de tus creaciones. Un abrazo!

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  58. It had to be hard to come forth and share this part of yourself, and I am so impressed with the changes you were finally able to make when you found your passion as a crafter sharing your wonderful artistic gifts. Well done and thank you for sharing this intimate struggle.

    Hugs and best wishes! xx

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  59. Hello Amanda. How beautiful you are and so courageous. Thank you for sharing your story with us. After a very abusive relationship ended I became Anorexic. It totally consumed my life but I thought I looked wonderful and totally opposite of what the ex had drummed into me for years. I had a career, two wonderful sons, my own home and car and I'd put all of that in jeopardy. Mental health was very misunderstood then but with the help of my friends and family I started to turn my life around. I am no longer Anorexic but I still struggle sometimes. I found cardmaking, quite by mistake, when I stumbled across a video of yours showing how to make a card and I was hooked - just like that. So, thank you Amanda for showing me how to go off into another world and create. It truly is the best therapy.

    Sending you much Love and Hugs xx

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  60. Un besazo enorme, Amanda. Me parece admirable que compartas tu historia, que se suma a la admiración que ya te tenía como artista.👍😘

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  61. You are an amazing woman. Thank you for sharing your story. I myself have struggled with similar issues in the past and I understand how card making can be therapeutic. I love your cards!! Keep posting 😘

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  62. You are awesome and so brave to share your story. You will help many people by this. Congrats on your blog/youtube and I look forward to seeing many more of your crafting goodness to come!

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    1. Thank you! I hope you are right and it can help others :). Big hug!

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  63. Thank you for sharing your story and being brave to do so. I'm a brand new follower of your blog and YouTube channel as I found you through the Card Making Therapy blog hop. Thank you for your inspiration (creativity and courage).

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  64. I've subscribed to your channel for quite a while and now I understand why you named it as you did. Thank you, brave one, for sharing your story. I have no doubt that you have brought hope and encouragement to many you will never meet. I don't know what your faith life looks like, but in mine, God works good through the struggles we face; His "power is made perfect in weakness". Blessings to you, sweet Amanda....thank you for sharing, not only your inspiring story, but your talents. You have many fans and we so enjoy watching you create! Keep on keeping on........

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  65. Thank you so much for sharing your story...i totally agree crafting is amazing therapy

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  66. Like so many others, I completely identify with your story. I have Crohn's, anxiety, depression, chronic pain, etc, etc. You know how it goes: one part of your body stops working, and the rest just kind of follows. My personal crafty medicine began with origami; I find it very meditative, but instead of "just" meditating, I have something pretty at the end. I only started making cards last year as a way to do something nice for some of the kids that I teach and then for my nieces when they had moved overseas. Now part of what I like about cardmaking in particular is how, while health issues can be so isolating, cards are a way of reaching out and connecting with people. I might not have the energy or money to visit people, but I still have a way to let them know that I think about them and love them.

    So I guess the point of this is both a thank you for sharing your story and a way of saying you (we) aren't alone. It's something I often need to remember, especially when one reaches that point over and over again where it all comes down to oneself and the choices one has to make in order to live the healthiest life one can. It's a hard place to be, and art helps us through it. *hugs from afar*

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  67. Thank you for sharing these difficult words! You never know who could be helped by your story. You are truely a strong & brace person.

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  68. Hi Amanda, I popped in today to read your story and I was stunned to learn how similar our stories are. Crafting is my medicine too. I was diagnosed with Ulcerative Colotis when I was 28, about 17 years ago. As it does, the disease progressed, slowly burning through all parts of my life. 3 years ago, I was close to death and after taking every possible pill and injection with no relief had to start having surgeries. I have had multiple surgeries over these last 3 years, and while I sat healing at home or the hospital the disease continued to burn through my life. My friends disappeared, my job was a secondary thought, the fear and depression and pain ruled my world. My lowest point was when my Mother died but I was too sick to bury her. Last February, a woman I had worked with for years came over to my house as I could not leave bringing what I thought was a ton of cardmaking supplies. She showed me how to papercraft. And my life changed, just like that! I had something to focus on. I was always creative when I was younger, but I had let that part of me sleep as my disease took over every aspect of my life. I have been cardmaking for almost a year and am loving my first season of Christmas cards and tags! I don’t really tell many people about my UC, on Instagram I’m just a cardmaker and it’s nice to not focus on my health for a few hours a week! Thanks for sharing! Sincerely, Stef White (@laverygrey)

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  69. Sharing your personal story is not only brave, but admired by so many of us who understand. So many of us have found a personal joy and healing through creating, a way to cope, meditate, while sharing the good in our hearts. Reading the comments after this post, you can repeatedly see there is so much love in this community of card making and crafting, while reading the stories of each of us to understand we are not alone with disappointments, illnesses, and setbacks. May we continue to lift each other up, help each other smile through the tough times, and share the comfort of our community and tomorrows. Much love Amanda!

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  70. Well done on sharing your story, it must have been a really hard post to write. I admire your courage and I'm really glad that card making has made such a difference to your life. I enjoy your videos immensely so keep up the good work x x

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  71. I'm so happy that you have found something that gives you peace. Thank you for sharing this story with all of us...I'm convinced that there are some things in life that are we are meant to share and it's because we can always touch another life with our story...it can make a huge difference and I'm sure your story will help and encourage many others.
    I have loved your videos for a long time...you are so talented and are such a great teacher...such a calming voice! Sending you love and hugs!!!

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  72. Hola, Amanda!
    Me ha impresionado mucho tu historia. Quizás porque tengo una hija que sufre de ansiedad desde hace años y por eso sé de primera mano lo durísimo que es. Para los enfermos y para los que estamos con ellos y sentimos una impotencia enorme. Las terapias y la medicación ayudan, pero es importantísimo hablar abiertamente y sin miedo, igual que hablamos de las enfermedades físicas, de las enfermedades mentales. Eres una luchadora y una campeona, bravo por tí!!
    Y bravo también por la tarjetería! Dar rienda suelta a la creatividad espanta a los monstruos invisibles que nos acechan, los hace volver a sus guaridas y nos deja espacio para respirar.
    Y dicho esto, te doy las gracias por todo lo que has trasmitido estos años con tus preciosos diseños, llenos de detalles y con un estilo muy particular.
    Tu canal fue prácticamente el primero al que me suscribí cuando empecé a hacer tarjetas, así que tienes en mi corazón un rinconcito muy especial.
    Un beso enorme, valiente!!

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  73. Bless you!! It is my therapy too! I know all too well the struggle to cope. Although we may have different reasons, art is therapy.

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  74. Thank you for sharing your story. Art and craft always help me to loosen up too.

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